2013

I've been horrible at blogging.

I feel like I've just been in my own little world taking care of 2 kids working and Aaron has been super busy. I'm {we're} just so tired by the end of the day I don't want to do a single thing.

I'm just going to recap our year

January- 6th- We had little Kinger


February- 10th- Kelley's talk
                18th- Ariel was born!
                 20th- Kelley left on his mission

March- 31st- Easter

April- 14th- Kingston's Blessing

May- 13th- Talked to Kelley!!!
          24th- Amanda graduated

June- 4th- Moms birthday
          15th- Went to Sedona
          28th- Amanda's Birthday & first time going to a circus!!

July- 12th- Tillman turned 3
         20th- Went to California
         26th- My birthday

August- 8th- 5 year anniversary!!!
              30th- Aaron's Birthday

September

October- 30th- Halloween

November - 8th- Went to California
                    28th- Thanksgiving

December- 25th- Christmas & talked to Kelley!!

Playing Catch Up

Life has been CRAZY with two kids. I don't know how anyone else feels but going from one to two is a big change! We have been so busy with me working and Aaron doing a million things. Such as getting a internship at CBS Radio!!!!!!! {thta's 94.5, 101.5 and 107.9} I'm so proud of him! He's starting off his career as a radio announcer! Right now he's juts doing behind the scene work but maybe they'll see how good he is and put him on the air!!

I need to catch up on a lot. 

Kingston is doing great he's growing like a weed!He's 4 months {almost 5} at his 4 month check up he weighed 12lbs. He's in 3 month clothes he's still a little guy if you think about it he's only suppose to be 2 and 1/2 months. He's talking up a storm! Tillman loves him so much he calls him Kingston Brother. he's always wanting to hold him and touch him. He wants him to play with him. He doesn't quite understand that he can't play yet. 

Lets see Easter....

Tillman woke up and he went around a found all the eggs the Easter Bunny hid then he went to find his basket. he got a movie some Cars socks and toys. Kingston for a movie also. After church we went to our families houses had yummy food and egg hunts :)

2 months!

Kingston Blessing

4.14.13

Aaron did a wonderful job blessing Kingston! It was beautiful!

At Ben & Lenor's house after the blessing

Ginger with her boys! 

Mother's Day

5.12.13

Mother's day was wonderful I got totally spoiled my everyone. Aaron made me this cute sign with our hand prints on it and he got my a H&M gift card. The best part was getting to talk/see Kelley. I miss him so much and it was so nice to see and hear his voice! 

  

I think that's all that's happened in our lives so far!

One Month

It's been one month a one day since Kingston made his dramatic entrance into this world. He is doing great! He only had to spend 9 days in the NICU. I was so glad we didn't have to spend months there. It was hard finding a place for Tillman everyday and Aaron had to work. Since we only have one car transportation would have gotten to be an issue. 9 days was a perfect amount of time.

He weighs 6lbs 7oz and 19 inches long. Exactly 2 pounds bigger and 2 inches longer! He's grown out of his preemie clothes and now is wearing newborn.{they're still a little big but he'll fill them out soon}  He is still on the bottle. We have to add calories to his milk so he keeps gaining weight! I think he looks more and more like Tillman everyday. 

I still can't believe that he's here. I still have 17 more days until his due date. During this pregnancy I always told myself that I wasn't due until march because I went late with Tillman and I didn't want to get induced this time around. I just wanted to prepare myself to go late and here I am with a one month old baby in the beginning of February!

He's a pretty good baby. He likes to be held a lot. I like the snuggle time I get but sometimes you have stuff to do! {like sleep}. Sometimes I wish once you became parents you no longer had to sleep at night. Sleep would just be an option not a necessity to function properly. 

I just can't believe I have TWO kids! it's so weird to hear people say "the boys" or "the kids".  Tillman loves "his Kingston" he always wants to know where he is or kiss him and thouch him.

15 minutes

The following events are all true.

They all happened within a 14 hour time span.

Saturday, January 5 9:36 pm

I had just finished doing the radio broadcast for the Mesa Community College basketball game. I was with my brother Mark and we were hungry. I text Laura to meet us at Applebees. We enjoyed what little Applebees has to offer and we went home. 

We were both excited to sleep in the next morning and with going to bed so late, Tillman for sure would sleep in. 

Midnight

Like always, Laura made sure the house was nice and tiddy before going to bed.  She finished folding laundry and made sure Tillman was ok.  It was just past mid night. We had flipped off all our lights except the hallway light. It lights the whole house enough so we don't need any other lights on for the night. Before getting in bed, Laura made sure to use the potty one more time. She didn't turn on the light, no need to because of the hallway light. Coming back into bed, she gasped!

"My water just broke!"

12:26 am

I quickly turned on the light, glanced down at Lauras sleeping pants.

"Are you suppose to be bleeding?" I knew the answer.

Our life, at that moment, changed.

(I will relate the story from each point of view)

Laura
I began shaking, shivering, like a cat in snow.
"Oh no, I don't want to lose the baby!"
I cried. I was scared. I couldn't stop shaking.


Aaron
"We are going to the hospital."
I sounded confident and in charge. But I was really mindless. My brain had been completely ripped out of my head. 270 pounds but I was weight less.
"Sit on the toilet so you don't drip blood ever where."
I flip on the light to the bathroom. 

My brain again got ripped from my head. 

Fresh, bright blood lined the entire toilet bowl. 

Lauras hand touch my shoulder. 

Laura
"oh no! Oh no! Oh no!"


We both were in shock.
There stood two intelligent adults who by just looking at a toilet, had just entered into a new realm of being, yet we were still standing in the doorway to our master bathroom.


Aaron  12:27 am
"Just sit, I will get everything." 
I called Lauras mom.
"What's happening?" Came the first words of a worried mother.
"Laura is bleeding everywhere, meet us at the hospital."
I rushed around. Grabbed what I thought we needed,
made sure Laura was OK. Poked my head in the bathroom.


Laura 12:28
I cried. I was shaking even worse. My heart pounding. 

"oh no, oh no, please be ok baby." I felt hopeless.

Drip. Drip. Drip.
Like an old faucet that just won't turn off.

Drip. Drip.Plop.

Slowly peeking down.
"I think my placenta just came out."

Aaron  12:29 am
The more I tried figuring out what was really taking place, the more whacked out this situation became.

"Get a towel and get in the car, I will grab Tillman." I helped her pull up her pants. Blood foot prints lined the hallway.
Till was dead asleep, planked out on his football sheets.
The second I grabbed him, he curled like a frightened earth worm but found comfort in my shoulder.

Laura  12:31 am   In the car
Shivering, shaking, I sat. 

My little baby. I love you, please be ok. I held my stomach. I love you baby. I love you. 

My mind raced. 

This doesn't really happen to people. Its all made up. I sob.

We made it to the hospital, checked in and luckily the bleeding had stopped.

Aaron   Sunday January 6 11:30 am
We were exhausted. Neither one of us could sleep. Laura being examined by nurses for hours and me needing to know every detail. 
Bleeding did stop but Laura was under strict bed rest. 

"We are going to play everything by ear. You aren't leaving this hospital pregnant." 
Doctors words, not mine. 

We didn't know if that meant days, weeks or months. The waiting game begun.

Aaron    noon
"I will go home, pack a bag and be back soon."
Lauras mom and sister had come by then.

Laura   noon
This catheter is uncomfortable. 


Is it suppose to be?

The pressure down there is getting worse.
I will just try to rest. I am just so relieved my baby is OK.
Why do I continue to have so much pressure?
My pain medicine should already be kicking in.

Aaron    2pm
I had stopped by Best Buy on Alma School. We needed a lap top for school and since I would have so much time sitting at the hospital, might as well purchase it now.
They didn't have the one we wanted. I sat in my car, looking up other Best Buys on my phone.
Scottsdale would probably have some. "Should I drive all the way up to Scottsdale?"
Nah, I should just head back to my girl.
I get on the freeway.

2:12 pm

"I forgot the camera." I just barely passed the exit to our house.
No rush, I guess.

"I will get it later, we have time."

Hospital room
Kathy (Lauras mom)   3 pm
"I am going to go get Kelley and Tillman from church and will be back later this afternoon. You guys rest."


Laura
"I just have a lot of pressure still."


Kathy
"Just try to get some rest."

Aaron  3:15 pm
Boy, I am tired. I am just going to lay down and watch the football game.


3:16 pm

Robert Griffin III has a busted knee and he just threw his 2nd TD pass and we aren't even done with the first half. Haha Seahawks.


Laura 3:17 pm
"I think I might be bleeding again."


Aaron
I flip up her blankets. "oh geese!!"
I ring the nurse.
"My wife is bleeding again!"

About 30 seconds went by but it felt like eternity.

"where the hell is she!"
Laura
"oh no!"
Blood was coming from her vagina like one of those mini desk water falls that were popular in the late 90's.


Aaron
I rush out the door and find 5 nurses hanging out by the main desk just 9 feet from our room.


3:18Two nurses urgently follow me into the room. The first nurse sees the blood. 

The circus then unfolded.

Within seconds, at least 12 nurses were running into our room.


Aaron
I stood in the middle of it all. Once again, I had my brain blown from my head. 

I, motionless in this frantic chaos, looked at my girl, who, funny to say, was looking at me. The same way I was looking at her. Brains blown away.
Laura
"Oh baby, please be ok, I love you."
I begin my shivering again. 

Where did all these people come from? 

Please don't leave me Aaron. Please don't take him away.
Nurses are on each side of me. An oxygen mask?
Oh no!! Please doing leave me Aaron!
He looks at me. "Stay calm, I am here." But he isn't really near. Come closer. 

They begin to rush me out the door. I reach for him, but don't get to touch him. I look back, "I am coming, stay calm," He says.

Aaron  3:18 pm
They whip my girl around the corner. I have one nurse asking me questions about medication, another nurse asking about what blood type she was, another dressing me head to toe in what seemed like a bio hazard suit.
I call Kathy. "Hello?"
"You need to come back right now!" I hang up and they rush me out the door.

Laura 3:20 pm
Shivering even worse now. They are rolling me so fast through these halls.

I don't like this oxygen mask. I remove it.
"My husband, my husband!" The nurse takes my hand.
"Its ok, he is coming."
I cry. They put the mask back on me. I look for Aaron but I was already in the operating room and the door was shut. 

Nurses rushed around like an ant hill that had just been stepped on.
They scream and yelled.

Scared doesn't come close to what I felt.
"My husband!"

Aaron 3:22 pm
I am standing all by myself outside the operating room. I know my girl is scared out of her mind. I need to be with her. 
A nurse comes from the operating room. Takes me to the recovery room right by the operating room. 
Its just her and I in this large room.


Nurse
"Ok, they are just getting Laura ready. We will go in soon, ok."

Aaron  3:23 pm
Tears build up in my eyes.
This is really happening. My girl must be so scared.
The nurse returns back to the operating room.


3:24 pm
All of the sudden another nurse yells, "Where is her Dr.?"

 "10 minutes away," someone yells back.
"She (Laura) doesn't have 10 minutes!!"
My heart sinks.
All of the sudden, a little lady Dr, not more than 100 pounds burst through the other doors, arms bloody.
"I got another delivery, let's hurry this up!!" She screams.
Just then, 3 nurses strip her down and re-clothe her in a matter of 7 seconds.
She burst into the operating room, screaming out orders. The whole time, other nurses are frantically running in and out of the operating room, yelling at each, talking in lingo.

I though, stood by myself, in this huge, quite room. Waiting. 

Laura 3:24 pm
I am shaking uncontrollably.  Tears stream down my face.

All I want is Aaron.

"Where is my husband?"
The last thing I remember was this fiesty little woman coming in the room, yelling and cussing. Then a blue sheet was put up in front of my belly.
I then was knocked out.

Aaron  3:25 pm
The nurse comes back out to me.

"Laura is too unstable, we are going to have to put her under. You can't be in there for that. You will have to stay here."
She turns and leaves me there all alone again in that recovery room.

My existence stopped.
There weren't any sounds anymore. 

My eyes blurred. 

My girl, the love of my life, my very best friend, was alone.
She was alone yet just 20 feet from me.
I have never cried harder in my life.
A nurse rushes out. She grabs the defibrillator and rushes back into the operating room.

My girl, oh my girl!!

I was so alone. I just thought of how scared my girl must be. 

My girl, my girl!! I sob.

3:26 pm
Complete silence...

3:27 pm
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3:31 pm
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3:32 pm
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3:33 pm
The nurse finally comes from the operating room.
She slowly takes off her gloves.
My eye are fixed on her, though blurry from non stop sobbing.

"He is here."

I somehow cried even more than I had already. 

"How is my girl?"

"She is fine, she is under heavy sedation but she is fine."

She hugs me. 

Aaron 3:38 pm
Little Kingston rolled out of the operating room.

For months Laura and I have wondered if he would look like Tillman or pull a 180 and have dark hair with dark eyes.

I looked down at him and all I saw was my T-Bone.  He was a complete carbon copy of Tillman.

I cried and reach my hand into the little sunglasses case he was in and touched his little hand that was the size of about a quarter.

"My little Buster, I love you. You stay strong.  I love you little guy.  I love you."

Kingston Jesse Webster was born 7 weeks early, 33 weeks exactly.  

He was born at 3:33 pm and he weighed 4 lbs, 7 OZ and was 17 inches long.

From the time I got the nurses to the time little Buster was born, 15 minutes had passed.

In that 15 minutes, Laura had lost over 2,000 cc's of blood.

If they waited just 10 more minutes, my girl and little Buster wouldn't be here.

Miracles happen.  

What took place in that 15 minutes proves even more that there is a higher power, no matter what God you bow to.

Grab someone you really love today and just give them a hug. 

You never know what the next 15 minutes will bring.

Halloween

This Halloween was so fun! We went over to my Aunt Holly's house and trick or treated in her neighborhood. Tillman got the hang out trick or treating really quick. It was so cute seeing him go up to the door with my cousins!  He LOVED being Scooby Doo.

Family night the Monday before Halloween.

Aaron was happy to be there I swear!

Boys Boys Boys

If you haven't heard already we are having another BOY! This pregnancy has been 100% different than Tillman's. This time around I have been so SUPER sick. I still get sick every once and awhile but it's nothing like the beginning! I feel like I'm already HUGE and I still have 4 months to go! I still can't believe I'm going to be the Mom of 2 boys! I'm going to have 2 kids it's so crazy! We have no idea what this little guys name is going to be. I feel like this time around it's harder to choose a name. Here are some pictures of our little guy.

While she was doing the ultrasound he was moving around like CRAZY!! This is a very active little guy!

On a sad note our house was broken into and our computer was stolen!! :( So all our pictures are gone!! Nothing else was taken. Luckily none of us were home! 

Baby #2

Aaron and I are expecting our second baby! We are due at the end of February I forgot the actual date I was late with Tillman and this time around I'm not going to get induced so I'm telling myself it's the end of February beginning of March that was I don't drive myself crazy with the due date. I'll be 13 weeks tomorrow. So far this pregnancy has been a lot different than Tillman's. I've been sick ALL THE TIME. With Tillman I was only sick in the morning. This time around it's been ALL day and night. My diet has consisted of otter pops. We went to the doctor today to hear the heart beat. Once we got in the room he started to look for it. He kept looking and looking and he couldn't find it!!!! I was FREAKING out! I was thinking I've been so sick I've had all the signs of being pregnant how could I not be. He told us that we'd go and get an ultrasound to see what was going on. We we're in the waiting room FOREVER {10 minutes} I felt like EVERYONE except us was getting called back. Finally they called my name. As soon as the ultrasound tech started she found the baby and it's little heart beat!!!! The reason they Dr. couldn't find it is my uterus  is tilted back and the placenta is growing right on the front so the doppler couldn't reach all the way back. We were so relived! Everything is perfectly healthy! Tillman kept pointing at the screen saying baby. We still don't know the sex but I'll be happy with anything. We are just glad everything is okay! 

Here is a picture of out little guy or girl!